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Monday, January 17, 2011

Byebye

This is the last post here!
(:

Friday, September 03, 2010

Its true.

So full.

So full of sins.

That day I saw on tm's status.
"How dreadful it is, on the day when all our thoughts and acts done in secret will be revealed. I should always remind myself of that in order to be fearful and sober."

Then I was reminded that on the very day of Judgment everything will be exposed. By our fleshly reasoning’s we try to compromise and deceive ourselves and everyone else but we cannot deceive our God, the supreme Judge.

"But I will tell you that men will have to give account on the day of judgment for every careless word they have spoken. Matthew 12:36"

And also every sin committed , every sinful thought of your heart. Imagine giving account to all those things you have done. Im scared because I know what I have done.

Lets behave.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Not so awesome

Freaking 3.27am and i still cannot sleep yet. Aftermath of a long night shift followed by long afternoon nap. My biological clock is pretty screwed. Actually if i really want to sleep, i can fall asleep quite easily (believe me im thankful for this). I am just too stubborn to close my eyes. What the heck what the hoo am i talking.

I want to find a human to talk to.

Where are friends when you need them. My dear girls, no i am not complaining about you guys. Just that i often find myself in a situation when i really want to talk to a human but realised you can only talk to yourself. Bet im not the only one. Am certain u felt this way before too, c'mon high five!

So i think I have 638 fb friends and xxx msn contacts for nothing. okay the xxx is because i went to check how many msn contacts i have but i realised need to count to get the figure becos i group-ed my contacts. Cant sleep doesnt mean i have to count msn contacts right hahaha! Ridiculous. Counting sheep is still waaay cooler.

Anw. I envy happy family, where the father and mother are still both in love, when sibilings playfully trying to annoy one another, when walking alone with your dad is not awkward, when the brother cares about things other than maple story and psp, when if one family member is not around the rest will for sure miss the person, when family goes to church together happily on sunday for the right reasons. Months ago mum was telling me we should really go take a family portrait. I am not sure if she still feel the same. I dont know how to help her, the most i can do is to massage her painful and sore heel and trying to rmb to do more housechores , heh heh which i ususally am too lazy to do. Mum is a strong woman, despite all the things we have done to her. All the mistakes that could never be corrected, only attempting to make up for.

I thought about you too. And i am so glad it did not happen because u are quite a bastard in some way. Goes the same for all guys actually. Today a human told me when guys talk to each other, they can start from many different things but will eventually end up in one same topic. Hahaha. True. And I dont like that.

Wahlao its nearly 5am. Okay, I shall not be stubborn anymore.

Anw i am not emo okay! Just in case you thought so. I am quite happy actually.
Quoting connie, KTHXBYE.

Monday, August 23, 2010

Stuck.

I'm no retarded I alr knew long ago.
Guys, no matter how old, are the same when it comes to certain things.
Just that I dont rly like the fact that you were the one who reminded me.
... .

Backtrack.
Few days ago i was not well. Very bad stomach cramps caused by virus, according to the doctor. Actually, I heard the doctor said "WHY-RUS" and i was wondering what medical term was that! Then i figured that virus probably makes more sense luh huh. Very bad backache came along too, reason unknown. I almost thought i just gave birth luhhh!
(Thanks mum, i have so much things to say but i guess actions speak louder than words"

So I got an two days MC during this yog deployment period. I think i am a very paranoid person. The first thing that came to my mind is, "uh, people surely say i chao keng." Why that thought, idk. But in the end i was right anw. That happened, be it intentional or not, it made me quite upset that day.

And i thought matured-female po are slightly cooler than ordinary girls. Boy, was i wrong. Women will still be women and they gna bitch and gossip and still can laugh and joke with the subject. For this reason, i am so so so glad my work environment hb more males than females. And that is one of the reasons why i joined uniformed services.

Random. I have decided i will not marry a talkative man. This is way more impt than whether he has leg hairs or not! I am serious, no jokin okay hahaha.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

A little bit upset.

Yesterday was National day but i wasnt at padang.

Supposed to be! But changes were made and i ended up conducting cargo checks at old BL interchange, hahaha.

My colleagues wld say that im silly to want to be deployed for NDP. But I very much want to see the marching contingent which i think is the most interesting part, or at least the fireworks. And the atmosphere.

Another reason is, I was hoping to be involved in NDP because I might get to see my squadmates there, lol.

After nearly four months already, I still keep thinking about my choice of division. I wanted to go Alpha div. Quite badly. But i ended up putting Juilet as my first choice because I live within juilet. Ironically, bb isnt exactly very convenient for me.

I think I make bad decisions. But if all these were to happen this way, there must be a reason for it. Maybe this way, it is better for me lah uh.

Friday, August 06, 2010

I know

it is wrong, so I will put a stop to it. I still don't know how but I will try.
I dont really feel the same way this time. Sometimes it feels okay. Its not so bad.

There are a lot of things that I would like to do.

1. Start my private driving lessons, after yog deployment.
2. And get my driving license.
3. Pick up a hobby. Yeah I dont hv any. lol.
4. Go for a run or a swim.
5. Buy a super big box to keep all my cards and letters.
6. Memorise all the commonly used sections of cap 224.
7. Figure out how to use my hp's bluetooth.
8. Watch Inception.
9. Get over and done with yog deployment.
10. Thats all for now.

lol.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Just some durians and mangoes thoughts.

Pure luck i guess.
Although it was just some durians and mangoes that were stolen, the action was there.
I likeeee.
Fruitful night uh.

Just give me a bit more time.
Actually, I think im alr lovin' bb and charlie more and more.
I've been kind of waiting for you to tell me your favourite song. Now, all i can think about is, i think the song is really nice.