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The previous ippt i got sliver and I was quite upset. Its not abt the silver or gold thing but what really bothered me was that i screwed up my sbj because i didn train at all. No excuses. And 2.4 timing dropped.

This morning, I retake my ippt. Some thought that I retake again to get a gold but it is really not so much because of that. Yeah of course, i wld like to get gold for ippt, but I chose to do it again because I know i can do better and I want to give my best shot this time.

Okay so, I got gold today but i am really angry at myself. Really angry.

During the 2.4, I stopped so many times. I've never stopped at all for any ippt 2.4 before. After I stopped the first time, i cannot stop stoppping. Across the tracks I heard the guys cheering for me and I felt so bad inside but i still walked. Before the run, i told myself, okay, i gotta do better than the previous 2.4, but instead of trying harder I actually walked. I am angry at myself for doing that, to give up just like that. So what if i ran below the gold timing for ippt. I stopped and walked. What the.

Another thing is that, I lost count of the laps. After passing the sensor I thought I just completed my 5th lap but the electronic scoring system thing stated that im left with zero lap, meaning i alr ran 6 rounds. The helpers also told me i've completed all rounds but I was so confused cus I counted 5 rds only. But I stopped anw. Didnt want to run anymore. So the thing is, did I finish all laps? If i didn, then whats the point. The gold wld be meaningless right?

Suddenly its like, I feel so incompetent. So loser, felt lousy. Wahlao, why I so blur sia. Cant even rmb the number of laps, cant even run a good run, cant even do S-course, cant even control the clutch pedal. Very demoralising actually. My last driving instructor even told me he thinks that I gona fail all my 3 tries of TP. haha. I realised I am afraid of driving. haha.

But cannot. I cannot afford to screw things up.

I gotta try harder.

So sian-ed. But the long john dinner with K, L and C after walk out cheer up me. Not them, its the food. Hahaha. okay lah actually very nice of them to accompany me, thank youu(:

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